Time will tell the truth

This control that I command,
and the discipline that I demand.
Are deliberations to disguise,
My some deeds I so dispise.

Strong picture that I potray,
helps me to save the day.
But when the night takes over,
like a coward I look for cover.

This glittering glory that I have gained,
was polished by people whom I have pained.
Their forgiveness I shall never earn,
no matter how bright I try to burn.

Today I am placed on the peak.
and they listen to what I speak.
But when I lose this power to please,
they will bring me down to my knees.

While World changes so fast,
I keep pondering in my past.
Will future be harsh or smooth?
Only time can tell that truth.